I’ll Never Love Another (Manuscript) the Way I Love You

May 23, 2012

When I was pregnant with my second child—thirteen years ago!—older and wiser relatives told me I’d have no trouble loving another baby as much as I loved my first. I didn’t doubt them so much as I couldn’t imagine how I could love any more than I already did. My first child filled me with incredible amounts of pride and joy. Surely there was a limited capacity to this sort of thing.

Fortunately, as any parent knows, love is in endless supply. Having learned this, I embarked on my third pregnancy, knowing I’d love the next child with an equal passion—the same, but different.

Flash forward several years, and without additional pregnancies, my capacity to love went untested, that is until I finished my first manuscript, all 110,000 glorious words of head hopping, a too-stupid-to-live heroine and a rape-y “love” scene. *cringe* Of course, the manuscript was my baby, so I loved it flaws and all. I loved it HARD, to the point of blindness. I loved it without rationale or reason even after the flaws became glaring. None of which was a problem until love for my first manuscript kept me from writing a second (Ten years!).

Eventually, I wrote another, because like unexpected pregnancies, things happen. And when I finished that second one, I realized I loved it too—in some ways more, in some ways less, which evened out to loving it the same, but different.

Each time I finish a manuscript, I can’t imagine loving another one. I keep waiting to hit a wall where I have nothing more to give—no more love, no more joy, no more excitement for these words.

It’s not going to happen is it?



5 Responses to “I’ll Never Love Another (Manuscript) the Way I Love You”

  1. A wise woman once said to me love stretches. Reckon that extends to loving manuscripts too 🙂

  2. taristhread Says:

    Yep, manuscripts are just like babies…there’s always enough love for one more!!

  3. […] Elley’s post on Wednesday got me thinking about my manuscripts. I’ve been writing a long time, and so I have 15 manuscripts finished. 15 is a lot of love to spread around, but I do love them all in different ways. […]

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